Living Life In The Slow Lane

So day two into my new chapter and I’m not going to lie, I am going a bit stir crazy! I am so used to living life in the fast lane, I definitely think I am going to take time to adjust.
Before 9am today, I got Emily ready and saw them off to Nursery and Work, meditated for ten minutes, did a kettlebell workout, hung the washing out, showered, got dressed, danced around to the dirty dancing soundtrack and then sat there and thought, I’m sure I could have taken my time over this a bit more but I am so used to squeezing so much in, I’m not used to having time. I crave time to myself but when it is here, I find the silence deafening. I need to learn to chill in my own company for a bit and not to feel guilty. This is something I will be working on in September!
I want meditation to be part of my life and i really think it makes a difference. I managed ten minutes today and that was tough even though I listened to a guided one - to be truthful at the end, I was falling asleep and what I should have done is said to myself have a little nap, why not but no instead I said get yourself up Kerry, too much to be done today. I don't like to sit still, there is too much of life to explore...i almost feel stressed with all that I want to do and feel like I am running out of time. I have felt like that for a while and that's why I left my job I suppose, life is so short so you have to do everything you can. So with that in mind, I am going to try and enjoy today, enjoy the silence, enjoy the head space and do the jobs that I have set out to do and get somethings organised as there are just so many opportunities out there for me to explore. Had a text from a good friend today that re affirmed why I am doing this, I have been brave and bold to do what I have done, this is about a new chapter and a new life for me so I need to just get on with it.









