Tantra – is this the missing part of the puzzle

Last weekend, I started my Tantra Training, this is a major step in me learning how to tap into my sexual energy so I can continue to set myself free and learn how I can in turn help others do the same. The entire weekend was completely out of my comfort zone but it was also truly mind blowing and I knew by the first day that this was possibly the missing part of the puzzle for me to deepen my connection to myself.
The entire weekend was just so magical and the connection we made with people that we had never met was just so beautifully spiritual. The course was clothing optional and that alone made me feel a bit uneasy but by the end of the weekend, I felt liberated and had no problem being naked around others. We are all so different and so unique and if you feel beautiful inside then you radiate that beauty and everyone around you feels it too. I think we should all spend more time naked and really fall in love with ourselves, how can we expect others to love us if we hide from ourselves.
One of the first exercises was a shaking meditation, I felt a bit embarrassed at first, you keep your feet on the ground and you close your eyes and just shake your whole body, I joined in but it definitely took a while to get into it, lots of people were making noise and I didn't feel the need too but then when I found out we were only half way I thought I may as well give it a go, you could literally feel all the tension from your body shaking away. It was so different from anything I had ever done before but I liked it. We then stopped, my goodness, the rush of electricity that took over my body was so intense that it moved me back and forth in a rocking motion. We were then asked to connect to our body, to touch ourselves somewhere. I connected one hand to my heart and then to just below my stomach, my safe place and a place of such warmth, I moved it further down towards my sex, it felt cold there. I started to cry, I knew I still had more to work do and the beautiful energy I was feeling stopped at my tummy. I feel more connected than ever in some ways but the one part that I am still not truly connected to is my Yoni.
Over the weekend, I was massaged in places that I have never really been touched and on Sunday, my body went into a type of shock, full body shaking, another piece of the trauma being released through my body, it was scary at the time but it was also an amazing experience to be so beautifully supported. I have felt so free this week, like a weight has been lifted, I think there is more to come but I am not scared anymore. It’s the second time it has happened to me but now I really surrender to it and know its just part of my journey and it will allow me to fly higher then I have ever flown before.









