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I’ve had a mixed response from my latest post and I get it
If you’ve never heard of ‘energy work’ then you might think it’s unrealistic and not possible for the body to heal itself
I never knew there was another way
This conversation is a big one
There is so much conditioning around illness
Most of us do what we are told
Follow the process that the medical team tell you
There is nothing wrong with that
You do you
I’ve never really done as I’m told
I’ve never really followed the ‘norm’
I’m a bit outside the box
And I always will be
Connecting more deeply with my truth and my body has changed everything
My body leads the way now
And I’m so thankful for this
I sat there on the bed and the doctor told me there was nothing he could do
It was incurable and was something that I had to learn to live with
But it's a condition that would only get worse over time and the only way to stop it is to have a hysterectomy
I was diagnosed with Adenomyosis - a rare condition of the uterus that was super painful and made me bleed
I left feeling quite distressed and off I popped and joined a few support groups
Within a couple of days, I realised they were not for me, I didn't want this label and I didn't want it to be something that defined me
I knew it had to be energetic so I started to explore this
It was the midst of the memories of my sexual trauma coming back
Memories that had buried in my body for over 20 years
My uterus was reacting to the shame and the violation of my boundaries that I was processing and it made sense to me
I did the energy work and I continued to feel the emotions that were alive in me
No more suppression, no more shutting myself down
Feeling feeling feeling
Investing in myself and my healing journey
Six weeks later I went back for my check-up
I sat back on the bed for another internal scan
The doctor looked confused
He kept looking at the monitor
Then back at my notes
Then back at the monitor
And then he looked at me
It's gone he said looking surprised
It's gone
I said oh I know I've been doing so much energy work
Huh?
I tried to explain but I get it's not something that's really considered in the medical world
The thing is I truly believe and know from my own experiences (and this is one of many that I will share)
Is that conditions of the body are when the body is in dis ease
I believe that all conditions are linked to deep rooted trauma or suppressed emotion that is then trapped in the body
Which causes the disease
The body is communicating with you all the time and these signs are often ignored or masked/managed in some way, which can often feel like you are going around in circles
I have energetically cleared incurable conditions from myself
My clients have been set free from conditions they thought they had to live with forever
It's energy
And when you trust in your body's ability to heal itself anything is possible
The first step is to believe it can happen
If you have a long-term health condition or your body is in dis ease and are ready to explore another powerful way to heal the body, Jget in touch and I can tell you how I can work with you purely 121 or in my new 6-month journey
Big Love Beautiful Souls xx
In the last two years , I’ve had three people transition through me after they’ve died
I embodied the pain they’ve felt in this life so they can heal and be free to move into the light and it’s been the most overwhelming experiences of my life
When I’ve been in it, it’s taken over my body, I’ve screamed cried, spoken in their voices, been sick and been in bed for days
These are emotions that were squashed so fucking deep that they dared to tell a soul
The pain they never wanted to feel which caused Dis ease in the body and made them sick
Or pain that felt to much they took their own life because it was unbearable
I’ve been asking what does this have to do with my purpose here on this Planet?
It’s becoming clearer by the day
Too many of us are getting sick because of the emotions we are not expressing
Because of our deepest truths that we dare to admit
I don’t want you to bury the stuff that hurts because you think you can’t be free from it
What makes me so powerful, is I see what you can’t see
I see and the feel the pain that you can’t face on your own
I hold your hand and I show you how
I can hold you in whatever needs to be expressed
This is why I am here
What I do isn’t sexy but I work with sexual energy which is your life force energy, it’s what brought you into the world and keeps you alive and has so much potency to take you to another dimension
I’m not telling you it’s going to be easy, It’s fucking hard but I promise you it will move with ease when you give it permission too
most people never go there
But it never goes, even in death
One day you’ll heal it so why wait?
And live your life embodying the truth of who you are and why you are here
If you are ready and this speaks to your soul
Know that I’m here for it all
I’m fucking powerful and I am here to show you how to really step into the person you were born to be
Last week, in the midst of lovemaking, I asked for it to stop
For Mark to stop touching me
It took me a while to find the words
I had gone from being deep in pleasure with my man
To being taken back to a time in my life when I was being abused
But that was pleasurable too
So much shame was arising in me
To acknowledge that my abuser was giving me pleasure
I knew something didn’t feel right, I wasn’t allowed to speak
I was confused how something could feel good but also feel so scary
I cried for my little girl that had no idea she was being taken advantage of
She thought that was love
And she craved love so much, to be noticed
I cried for my body that had held on to this shame for so many years
I cried because I knew something wasn’t right
I asked Mark to hold me and tell me I was safe
I know what I need now
I surrender into what the body is asking for
The body is so powerful and knows exactly what it needs, if you listen
I squashed down these feelings so often in my life
So many times in the past, I told that part of me to be quiet
I thought that silencing myself was healing me
Because the thought of feeling the pain felt too much
My little girl isn’t silenced anymore
I give her space to speak
I let her process whatever she wants
Even if it’s not at the most 'convenient' times
It’s when she is ready
My little girl is sending love to your little girl
I see you
I feel you
I love you
I'm holding you close
The Embodiment of my truth hasn't been easy, It continues to shake me to my core
It’s taken me to depths of myself that I never knew
I've wished that I was numb again
I've hurt those I love
But knew I had to follow what is true
I'm done with being the person that others say I should be
I'm done with fitting the mould
I'm done with just making do
I am here to embody my truth
And live the life that I was born too
Will this be painful and messy? YES
Will it be pleasurable? FUCK YES
Will it make me feel ALIVE and make the most of every fucking day on this planet? YES YES YES
Embodying your truth is a choice
It’s not for everyone
Some choose to run from the truth
And others choose to lean in and discover more of themselves
If you are done playing small and ready to dance with power and light that is beyond the comprehension of what you know now
Email me, my new 6-month container may just be what you are looking for
Not sure if you realised but I’m a woman on a mission to change the fucking world?
To lift the vibration of this planet to another level!
This week I came back fully into my body again … I’ve been in a fog for a while but now I know why..
Because my fucking goodness do I have some magical work to do
I have been in labour all week - birthing soooo much through my being
I can feel the shift
It’s pulsating through every cell of my body
Can you see how excited I am?!
Watch this space beauties - did I mention I’m a woman on a mission to change the fucking world?
One of the biggest AHAS that I’ve had since my 3am wake up is:
GET YOUR BUTT ON MORE STAGES! YOU WERE BORN FOR IT!!
I LOVE to take beautiful beings on a journey
To let the BODY lead the way and
EMBODY what is alive in them even if it feels uncomfortable
That is where the MAGIC is
To step into their POWER of who they are really are
To LIVE In TRUTH - unapologetically
I love to do this LIVE and I’m on a mission to get on more stages this year because my goodness do I give a good show
So whether it’s running a rage ritual, $exual energy activation or a power ritual
Part of my MAGIC is I know what people need to hear, I don’t need to prep, I FEEL it
I’m BORN for the stage darlings, BORN FOR IT and the people that experience my magic
Will NEVER forget me and it will change their life forever
I would love you to hit me up with any organisers or stages you think may LOVE some of the magic darlings
Pic is me at latitude … my goodness that was a powerful weekend of adapting to a new audience but they were blown away!
My journey to Goa was at the beginning of the world going crazy and after cancelled planes and mayhem, I arrived late for my journey to master my pleasure
I’d woken up my sexual energy and been on a crazy journey exploring this but I knew I was holding back in my own pleasure, I was afraid of my power, of what was possible within me
Like with all week-long containers I attend, it was edgy and I’d had a banging headache that wouldn’t budge and was driving me crazy.
I did an embodiment practice connecting to my energy body and moving energy through, I started to shake, my head started to move frantically from side to side and I was screaming NOOOOOOOOOOOO
I could see it so clearly, I was being held down and I was being raped, all I could see were faces flashing up in my eyes as I moved the trauma through my body
I’d experienced something like this before in my own journey but I knew this wasn’t mine
Then all of a sudden, I felt my back arch and I rose from my body and saw myself connecting into the light, to consciousness
I remember feeling this sense of peace all over my body as I felt the light beam in to me
Then I came back to the room, I couldn’t really make sense of what happened and it took a while for me to feel fully in my body - I wasn’t really back for some time
That night, I couldn’t sleep and as I tossed and turned, I felt a presence in the room, I thought I must be dreaming and then I was told very clearly
This isn’t just about you
It’s for the women that never had a voice
All those that came before you
That never had the power to heal from their trauma and the times their No wasn’t heard
You are doing it for them too
On the days where I want to run away
I remind myself of this day
I remind myself of the power I have to heal myself and the collective, both here and those that have past
Sometimes it feels like a huge responsibility but it’s why I show up
It’s always bigger then you … always
It took me a while to integrate what happened in Goa, it was the first time, I realized that I was part of something greater than me and I’m sharing with you because I want you to know that too
To be Continued….
I’d woken up my sexual energy and been on a crazy journey exploring this but I knew I was holding back in my own pleasure, I was afraid of my power, of what was possible within me
Like with all week-long containers I attend, it was edgy and I’d had a banging headache that wouldn’t budge and was driving me crazy.
I did an embodiment practice connecting to my energy body and moving energy through, I started to shake, my head started to move frantically from side to side and I was screaming NOOOOOOOOOOOO
I could see it so clearly, I was being held down and I was being raped, all I could see were faces flashing up in my eyes as I moved the trauma through my body
I’d experienced something like this before in my own journey but I knew this wasn’t mine
Then all of a sudden, I felt my back arch and I rose from my body and saw myself connecting into the light, to consciousness
I remember feeling this sense of peace all over my body as I felt the light beam in to me
Then I came back to the room, I couldn’t really make sense of what happened and it took a while for me to feel fully in my body - I wasn’t really back for some time
That night, I couldn’t sleep and as I tossed and turned, I felt a presence in the room, I thought I must be dreaming and then I was told very clearly
This isn’t just about you
It’s for the women that never had a voice
All those that came before you
That never had the power to heal from their trauma and the times their No wasn’t heard
You are doing it for them too
On the days where I want to run away
I remind myself of this day
I remind myself of the power I have to heal myself and the collective, both here and those that have past
Sometimes it feels like a huge responsibility but it’s why I show up
It’s always bigger then you … always
It took me a while to integrate what happened in Goa, it was the first time, I realized that I was part of something greater than me and I’m sharing with you because I want you to know that too
To be Continued….
When I was little, my mum used to tell me a lot that I was special
She used to share with me the stories of her own spiritual journey and that I had guides and angels watching over me
I used to raise my eyebrows and honestly thought she was a bit doolally
I knew before I arrived in the world that my mum had experienced some miscarriages, she remembers the night I was conceived so clearly
She felt herself rise from the bed, seeing herself below, she felt the hand of something on her shoulder but she was too scared to look around.
The voice told her not to worry and that everything would be ok now
She found out she was pregnant a few weeks later
Another story she shared was when she was 8 months pregnant, whilst making dinner, she slipped on some water in the kitchen and as she fell, she grabbed the oven and as it fell towards her, the pan of boiling potatoes slid to the back of oven
Another time, at the traffic lights whilst taking me to school, the lights turned red and just as she was about to cross, a voice told her to pull me back, just as a motorbike sped through the red light
So many things like this happened in my childhood and my mum said she always knew I’d be a spiritual soul and my angels were always looking out for me
I never understood or wanted to accept that I was spiritual until the last few years, I think it really began when I experienced my own out-of-body experience
This happened in 2020 during a retreat in Goa and it was an experience that I will never forget and it was the catalyst for a HUGE ascension into the spiritual world.
To be Continued…
She used to share with me the stories of her own spiritual journey and that I had guides and angels watching over me
I used to raise my eyebrows and honestly thought she was a bit doolally
I knew before I arrived in the world that my mum had experienced some miscarriages, she remembers the night I was conceived so clearly
She felt herself rise from the bed, seeing herself below, she felt the hand of something on her shoulder but she was too scared to look around.
The voice told her not to worry and that everything would be ok now
She found out she was pregnant a few weeks later
Another story she shared was when she was 8 months pregnant, whilst making dinner, she slipped on some water in the kitchen and as she fell, she grabbed the oven and as it fell towards her, the pan of boiling potatoes slid to the back of oven
Another time, at the traffic lights whilst taking me to school, the lights turned red and just as she was about to cross, a voice told her to pull me back, just as a motorbike sped through the red light
So many things like this happened in my childhood and my mum said she always knew I’d be a spiritual soul and my angels were always looking out for me
I never understood or wanted to accept that I was spiritual until the last few years, I think it really began when I experienced my own out-of-body experience
This happened in 2020 during a retreat in Goa and it was an experience that I will never forget and it was the catalyst for a HUGE ascension into the spiritual world.
To be Continued…
The hours that followed the spiritualist church were a whirlwind
I had so many messages to share, that I definitely wasn’t present at Mark’s friend’s party and spent most of the time on the phone
In the past, I always told myself that mediums and psychics were con artists and that they never really knew anything, they just picked up on things you said
On that day, I purposely tried to say nothing but it didn’t matter because everything she was saying didn’t make sense to me
But after, when I delivered the messages, it made more sense
I just kept saying OMG, this must be true
You cannot deny this Kerry
This isn’t something she made up
OMG, There must be a life after this one
I always thought how can there be a god if so many people I loved were taken so young
But in that moment I realised there maybe there was more after this life, that the spirits and angels my mums always told me about did exist
This was just over 6 years ago…
I thought that was the start of my deepest spiritual journey, turns out it started the night I was conceived
To be continued… there is so much more to come
I had so many messages to share, that I definitely wasn’t present at Mark’s friend’s party and spent most of the time on the phone
In the past, I always told myself that mediums and psychics were con artists and that they never really knew anything, they just picked up on things you said
On that day, I purposely tried to say nothing but it didn’t matter because everything she was saying didn’t make sense to me
But after, when I delivered the messages, it made more sense
I just kept saying OMG, this must be true
You cannot deny this Kerry
This isn’t something she made up
OMG, There must be a life after this one
I always thought how can there be a god if so many people I loved were taken so young
But in that moment I realised there maybe there was more after this life, that the spirits and angels my mums always told me about did exist
This was just over 6 years ago…
I thought that was the start of my deepest spiritual journey, turns out it started the night I was conceived
To be continued… there is so much more to come
6 years ago, I handed in my notice to a job I loved, but the call was so strong, there is something more
That night, I felt sick, was I really leaving my 15-year career on an inner knowing?
The following day, just after my morning PT session, I was standing outside my house and I was feeling panicked when my dear friend Helen invited me to a spiritualist church event that day
I already had plans to go to one of Mark’s friend’s birthday lunches
But I knew I had to go
Mark wasn’t impressed but I promised him I would be back at 2pm, I was hoping for a sign that will tell me I am on the right path
When I arrived at the church, it was buzzling with people, mediums and healers
The next appointment available was 2pm
I hesitated for a moment, thinking of my promise to Mark but knew I had to have it
I sat down with the medium and she looked me straight in the eyes and told me she has someone here that had been here all day, was he for me?
A beautiful soul, a handsome chap
As soon as she started to speak, I knew exactly who it was
It was one of my friends brothers
He had a lot to say, most of it made no sense to me, but I sat that absorbing every word like a sponge because I knew I was meant to
Some of the things he said was so specific, so detailed I knew it was him and he knew me – I was in a state of shock
After she finished, it was 3pm, I got up, rushed to say bye to Helen, I was crying my eyes out, and belted it to the train station…whilst recording everything on my phone so I didn’t forget as I knew I had to share it with his family
Until that point, I had never really believed it was true, that there really was a life after this one and it was only a few weeks ago, that the penny dropped, I did receive a sign that day, it was a huge gift and the start of my deeper spiritual journey
And what happened next, blew my mind
To be continued…
That night, I felt sick, was I really leaving my 15-year career on an inner knowing?
The following day, just after my morning PT session, I was standing outside my house and I was feeling panicked when my dear friend Helen invited me to a spiritualist church event that day
I already had plans to go to one of Mark’s friend’s birthday lunches
But I knew I had to go
Mark wasn’t impressed but I promised him I would be back at 2pm, I was hoping for a sign that will tell me I am on the right path
When I arrived at the church, it was buzzling with people, mediums and healers
The next appointment available was 2pm
I hesitated for a moment, thinking of my promise to Mark but knew I had to have it
I sat down with the medium and she looked me straight in the eyes and told me she has someone here that had been here all day, was he for me?
A beautiful soul, a handsome chap
As soon as she started to speak, I knew exactly who it was
It was one of my friends brothers
He had a lot to say, most of it made no sense to me, but I sat that absorbing every word like a sponge because I knew I was meant to
Some of the things he said was so specific, so detailed I knew it was him and he knew me – I was in a state of shock
After she finished, it was 3pm, I got up, rushed to say bye to Helen, I was crying my eyes out, and belted it to the train station…whilst recording everything on my phone so I didn’t forget as I knew I had to share it with his family
Until that point, I had never really believed it was true, that there really was a life after this one and it was only a few weeks ago, that the penny dropped, I did receive a sign that day, it was a huge gift and the start of my deeper spiritual journey
And what happened next, blew my mind
To be continued…
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Click hereto read the article. Enjoy beautiful souls ❤️
This is what stepping up looked like for me this morning
I pushed through some moments the last 24 hours where I wanted to scream, shout and burst into tears but just got on with it
And then it caught up with me this morning in the middle of a town centre so I went to the toilets and let it all out … well as much as I could in a town centre toilets!
It’s raw
It’s fucking hard sometimes
But I surrender to it all because I know that it will move
It already has …
By allowing myself to break down
Even when it consumes me
This is how I step into my greatness
By being all of me ✨
Other pic is me ten mins after posting - dancing between the dark and the light is my world, thank you for all the love darling ones
I really am ok ✨ 🖤
Well that was a first for me - today I spent the afternoon on a nudist beach with the beautiful Sophie Cleere
I found it quite funny that I’d never been especially when I’m such a huge advocate of being comfortable in your own skin and I spend a lot of time in naked spaces in the sacred sexuality world
It felt so beautifully freeing to just be - no restrictions and at peace with my body and well swimming in the sea is extra gorgeous without clothes anyway
A beautifully lush day - I rather enjoyed it! ❤️
11.5 years of loving this man, but also of resisting his love
To trying to be fiercely independent and feeling like I couldn’t be both
To feeling safe so I could expand and grow as an individual
To finding each other again
To finding our way of relating
Consciously with love
With passion
With the rawness that comes from living in truth of who you are moment by moment
Not hiding
Not running away
Being me because that’s who I am
It’s who he is too
Two people
Different ways of relating, different ways of being
Meeting in love
What a journey and one I wouldn’t change for the world and it’s continuing every single day
That’s why I love working with couples because it’s not easy relating, but it’s finding a way that you can both be you and still grow together
After the most phenomenal pilot of my Conscious Couples Journey, The doors have opened for the next wave of beautiful couples to take this magical step in their relationship …
If you’d like to know more - email me
or let me know below and I’ll pop you the details ❤️ ✨
Wow Five years ago - I remember this day so well
I had a VIP day with the gorgeous Yvette
I remember admitting out loud about the two sides to me - the holistic Mumma who was so ‘normal’ and also this wild Sexual Goddess side that I had discovered during meditation and was fuelled with so much shame
We explored this some more and discovered that I was only 5 when I discovered sexual energy and at the grand old age of 37, had tried to suppress this in me my entire life but had no idea why
When I left my career and went into silence, my body woke up and it was trying to get my attention
Consciously, I had no idea that I had experienced trauma from such a young age but my body did
I also had no idea that how I felt about sex and my body wasn’t how it was supposed to be
My body held onto this for over 30 years
This day was hugely significant because we absolutely did discover the real me that day
I tried to run away so many times after this as my memories started to flood back - even in this picture I can tell I was holding on still
But I’m so glad I never kept running
I would never have thought 5 years ago that I’d have published my own book and be on national TV tonight Talking about the power of sexual healing
Wow wow wow ✨✨✨✨✨
I will be forever grateful to Yvette Taylor , Camilla Baker my mediation teacher , Gayatri Beegan my first ever Tantra teacher and to all the other inspirational teachers, friends and my man Mark Hawkins that have held my hand through the rollercoaster of the last five years
And to my clients who have put their trust in me for their own healing journey - so thankful for you ❤️
I wonder what will be in store next 🔥🔥🔥🔥
I had a VIP day with the gorgeous Yvette
I remember admitting out loud about the two sides to me - the holistic Mumma who was so ‘normal’ and also this wild Sexual Goddess side that I had discovered during meditation and was fuelled with so much shame
We explored this some more and discovered that I was only 5 when I discovered sexual energy and at the grand old age of 37, had tried to suppress this in me my entire life but had no idea why
When I left my career and went into silence, my body woke up and it was trying to get my attention
Consciously, I had no idea that I had experienced trauma from such a young age but my body did
I also had no idea that how I felt about sex and my body wasn’t how it was supposed to be
My body held onto this for over 30 years
This day was hugely significant because we absolutely did discover the real me that day
I tried to run away so many times after this as my memories started to flood back - even in this picture I can tell I was holding on still
But I’m so glad I never kept running
I would never have thought 5 years ago that I’d have published my own book and be on national TV tonight Talking about the power of sexual healing
Wow wow wow ✨✨✨✨✨
I will be forever grateful to Yvette Taylor , Camilla Baker my mediation teacher , Gayatri Beegan my first ever Tantra teacher and to all the other inspirational teachers, friends and my man Mark Hawkins that have held my hand through the rollercoaster of the last five years
And to my clients who have put their trust in me for their own healing journey - so thankful for you ❤️
I wonder what will be in store next 🔥🔥🔥🔥
I did what I thought was right
I tried not to cry
I remained ‘strong’ and did what had to be done
I spoke to everyone I had too
Looked after everyone I thought needed it
I said I was ‘fine’
I got on with things because that’s what you did back then
You said you were fine even though things were not fine
Even though inside you wanted everything to stop
You told your friends you were fine too
Because that’s what you did back then
That was strong wasn’t it?
To pretend that you were fine
You did what was important and you moved on
Way too quickly
I done this time and time again
That’s the thing with trauma
If you don’t feel what’s there as and when it arises it doesn’t actually go anywhere
You might be telling yourself your fine
You might have had a cry and decided you’ve felt it all
But the body keeps the memory
You may never choose to go there but maybe one day you’ll decide that it’s ok not to pretend anymore
It’s ok to let it go
To go to the depths of that feeling
It’s ok not to be fine
My little girl has been with me this week, the events of last weekend processing through me
I did what had to be done
I spoke to who I had to speak too
I looked after everyone involved
I processed what happened and I took a huge lesson but I wasn’t ready to feel it all just yet
This week I’ve been in touch with my little girl
She has been so scared that this guy might come and find her
I’ve given her lots of love and nourished her soul
I’ve slept days in bed
I’ve cried
I’ve screamed
I’ve shouted
I’ve watched light hearted tv
I’ve reached out for support
I’ve acknowledged the little Kerry in me
Whilst still being an amazing mum myself and holding mine close
I feel so much lighter now I’ve let it all move but wanted to share this message with you all as it’s important
You never know when things will come up
When something in the present triggers something from your past
But when it does - give that part of you, the little one in you some love
Give her what she needs
It doesn’t matter how old you are, your inner child is with you all the time
Waiting to be heard
To be held
To be loved
To be told that she is safe
To know that you are there ❤️
Feeling so blessed and Just a little bit excited tonight after my first call in my new Goddess Awakening Membership
From a crazy download driving along a country road, to changing my whole business model, to 40 gorgeous beings saying YES to themselves, to the unknown, to the journey that is going to Unfold
They have come from across the globe tuning in from the U.K, Canada, USA, Germany, Sweden and Australia to name but a few
Wow wow wow
This is SO huge because it was another leap of faith not just for me but for everyone that joined - so much magic to come this year and it’s means everything to me
Bring it on!!!
(And if you're interested in becoming part of this beautiful membership, join the waiting list hereand I'll let you know when the doors open again later this year )
From a crazy download driving along a country road, to changing my whole business model, to 40 gorgeous beings saying YES to themselves, to the unknown, to the journey that is going to Unfold
They have come from across the globe tuning in from the U.K, Canada, USA, Germany, Sweden and Australia to name but a few
Wow wow wow
This is SO huge because it was another leap of faith not just for me but for everyone that joined - so much magic to come this year and it’s means everything to me
Bring it on!!!
(And if you're interested in becoming part of this beautiful membership, join the waiting list hereand I'll let you know when the doors open again later this year )
I never knew that I could say no
I never knew that wasn’t love
I never knew it was ok to feel uncomfortable
I never knew that feeling disgusting wasn’t how it was meant to be
I never knew that yearning to be loved was because I never loved myself
I never knew that I could say this isn’t ok
I never knew what ok felt like
I never knew that you would hold on to this for so long
I never knew how to listen to you
I’m so sorry
I’m listening now
I’ll always listen
I see you
I feel you so deeply
I’m not the same girl anymore but I’m holding her close
She never knew
But she knows now
And that to me is everything
Pure love, unconditionally 💕✨
Took this gorgeous picture in my garden this morning ~ it’s a special day in the Celtic calendar, a celebration of Imbolc marking the official start to spring
The days are getting lighter and nature’s energy is moving towards new life forming
It’s the perfect day to start cleaning out the old, letting go of the past to make space for new beginnings
The day also honours Brigid, the beautiful fiery Celtic goddess, a healer, goddess of the fire and sun bringing fertility
I’m feeling alive in my soul this morning, a bubble of excitement is running through me as I’m spending the day getting content ready for my new Goddess Awakening Membership
- it’s going to a beautiful magical container to let go, to surrender to the depths of your soul 💗
This morning I looked in the mirror and said ooh I love my grey hair today - I’m going to pin a bit back so it’s out out!
I can’t tell you how refreshing it feels to fully let go of the stories I placed on myself about why I should never embrace my grey
Pinching myself so much for the continual journey to accept all parts of me - it really is a deep journey of self love and that’s why I love to teach all the tools you need to keep listening to you and accepting you just the way you are ❤️
I can’t tell you how refreshing it feels to fully let go of the stories I placed on myself about why I should never embrace my grey
Pinching myself so much for the continual journey to accept all parts of me - it really is a deep journey of self love and that’s why I love to teach all the tools you need to keep listening to you and accepting you just the way you are ❤️
Being a goddess is about loving you no matter what
It’s about being in your workout clothes and still feeling sexy
It’s about learning to embrace every part of you - wrinkles, grey hair, extra weight, the times you want to run away because all of them are you
It’s about feeling content and never looking outside of yourself for validation because you are enough
It’s about feeling free in your body and not trying to change it in every which way you can and still feeling crap
It’s about not continually buying stuff for yourself to fill a void, to make you happy and realising you need nothing else but you
It’s an inner peace and a calm in you that flows through life and knows that every time there is a bump, there is a learning and you are growing
every single minute of the day
every single minute of the day
It’s more then all of that
It’s a life of fullness
It’s divine love for yourself and Life itself
It’s freedom in every sense of the word
It’s permission to be YOU
Unapologetically
To every single part of your life
Your life
Your dreams
Your pleasure
YOU in all it’s magic and vibrancy
✨✨✨✨
I spent years in counseling, psychotherapy, CBT, you name it I did it.
I always knew I needed to be healed in some way because when I stopped, I hated it, I wanted to keep busy all the time even though I was exhausted.
I know all the therapy I had played a role in my journey but what changed the game for me and revealed the truth of what my body was holding on to was bringing my awareness to what was alive in me now, not talking over and over the same things that distressed me - to work with the now, what was happening in me now
What was I saying to myself?
What did I feel?
When I stopped going over and over the stories
I discovered I didn't like myself very much
I felt the emotions that I was underneath all the noise
I remembered my past
I think it's important to acknowledge where you have been but don't get lost in it
How do you feel now - what is here now?
I know from my experience that bringing everything here will move you forward - without pushing
There is no rush - embrace this moment, embrace your truth today 💕
I thought I’d let this go after all the work I’ve done
I thought I was done with healing this part of you
I thought I’d said everything I wanted to say
I thought I’d never feel this way again
But here I am
Feeling the rawness of that day
Of all the times when my no wasn’t honoured
But I’m not running away
I promised Myself I would never shut you down
I promised myself I would let you speak
I promised I would keep you safe
To do whatever you needed to heal yourself
To move this energy through me
It’s ok to feel what you feel
I’ve got you
Holding you close
I’m listening
You are so loved dear one
This too shall pass
Surrender into the darkness my darling
Your light will shine again
This is the work ❤️✨
I thought I was done with healing this part of you
I thought I’d said everything I wanted to say
I thought I’d never feel this way again
But here I am
Feeling the rawness of that day
Of all the times when my no wasn’t honoured
But I’m not running away
I promised Myself I would never shut you down
I promised myself I would let you speak
I promised I would keep you safe
To do whatever you needed to heal yourself
To move this energy through me
It’s ok to feel what you feel
I’ve got you
Holding you close
I’m listening
You are so loved dear one
This too shall pass
Surrender into the darkness my darling
Your light will shine again
This is the work ❤️✨
Fear has been a huge part of my year and although I have all the tools to release and let it go, I knew I had to feel it first and my god have I felt it
Fear is the lowest vibration of all the emotions with love being the highest and there is so much fear in the world right now and if you let it consume you it can look like this:
- Fear makes you feel like you can’t breathe
- Like you can’t cope
- Like you’ll never ever feel better again
- It makes you feel on edge in the heights of despair
- It can choke you and make you feel paralysed to the spot
- Stuck in your mind and in your body
But only if you let it
This year fear took over my body, I manifested headaches that made me feel I had a brain tumour, it took me to hospital when my body bled because I was so scared of my book being out and my story being shared in the world and again when I was filmed for channel 4 and would represent me in the light I deserved
It left me gasping for breath
It made me feel like I was dying when I got told I had cancer
It disconnected me from my purpose, from my soul and at times I totally lost myself in it
But when I surrendered to it, acknowledged it for what it was, I felt it move
✨ I let it breathe
✨ The words that wanted to be expressed were screamed out
✨ I admitted I was scared
✨ I embodied it through my breath and through dance
✨ I felt it
✨ I really felt it
✨ It moved
In the last few weeks I have felt such a gorgeous connection with my body as the fear is moving
I’ve made decisions that put me and my body first
I have connected to love and to my inner strength that totally has my back
Are you letting fear consume you or can you give yourself permission to acknowledge and feel it so it passes and so you can connect to the real essence in you and connect to love
Love always wins if you let it ❤️
I looked at the stage at the 02 tonight and said I’m going to be on that stage one day ✨
Everyone laughed, maybe this feels like an out of reach dream to some - but I know it will happen one day so as the 12th day of December (12:12) comes to an end… I’m manifesting it right here!
I’m pretty good at manifesting ✨
This year I said I’d write a best selling book and be on TV (and well it happened - OMG!!) 🔥🔥 🔥
So I’ll pop this one out there too because I know the power in believing in your dreams and that’s a HUGE one of mine
Does anyone else have this dream?
I have a vision of doing something pretty special, that will raise the Vibration of 20,000 people all at once and I’m going to start speaking about this more and more and let’s see the magic unfold ✨✨✨✨
Everyone laughed, maybe this feels like an out of reach dream to some - but I know it will happen one day so as the 12th day of December (12:12) comes to an end… I’m manifesting it right here!
I’m pretty good at manifesting ✨
This year I said I’d write a best selling book and be on TV (and well it happened - OMG!!) 🔥🔥 🔥
So I’ll pop this one out there too because I know the power in believing in your dreams and that’s a HUGE one of mine
Does anyone else have this dream?
I have a vision of doing something pretty special, that will raise the Vibration of 20,000 people all at once and I’m going to start speaking about this more and more and let’s see the magic unfold ✨✨✨✨
Omg - something pretty exciting happened last night
When I was younger, I used to love writing songs, I remember sitting on my till at Safeway and scribbling lyrics on the back of till receipts, I’ve always loved singing my heart out to them
One of my dreams is to learn to play the guitar (this is me pretending years ago!)- it’s not clicking at the moment but I’m determined to nail it one day
And after spending the morning with the gorgeous Rebecca Warwick
and listening to her singing, I remembered how much I used to love it and it totally inspired my creative juices
Last night after a very hot Goddess bath and full of cold, I popped to bed and was writing in my journal and then….
I only when and wrote my first song in years and it literally jumped onto the page in minutes - I couldn’t believe how it flowed
I’m so excited because I think it has potential to be a good song and is connected to why I jump out of bed every day
Watch this space beauties - Kerry the guitar playing singer song writer will be coming atcha one day soon!! Hee hee!!
I can’t believe that it was nearly two weeks ago that I finished the ISTA experience - a deep dive into the soul it most certainly was
I hold space everyday with my clients and so familiar with this work yet there is always more - always
I love week long containers where I can totally immerse myself into my body and let the magic unfold with trust and surrender to all that arises
It was so profound and expansive on some many levels that I don’t really have many words yet, just to send my love and so much gratitude to every soul I journeyed with, the assistants who rocked it on so many levels and to the phenomenal facilitators Elaine Yonge
Bynoi Desouza
and Nimai SunRa Lev Shalem
for sharing this work and their gorgeous magic which I am still feeling so deeply
I feel so blessed to be in this world and wow what a picture of pure love and gorgeousness
Life is a dance between the dark and the light and to say I’ve been to the heights of euphoria to the depths of despair in the last 6 weeks is an understatement
Six weeks ago, the day after the channel 4 showwent out, I was on such a high, I was so relieved but also so proud of my presence here on this earth, my bookand now TV, wow.
Off I popped full of joy in my heart to an appointment with my dermatologist about my biopsy on my heart mole and with sad eyes, he gave me a skin cancer diagnosis, within 15 mins, I was examined, given a macmillian booklet, next procedure booked and was introduced to my Macmillian nurse who said she was there to support me with my diagnosis - WTAF!!
I felt like my world was spinning, I felt so sick and confused, I just couldn’t get my head around my diagnosis and how it was handled
Three weeks later I found lumps on both breasts and was urgently referred to the breast clinic
I have been praying so hard and have screamed at the universe that I am not done here yet, what the hell is going on?
The truth is I’m scared of cancer, having lost three people my age to it and knowing so many people effected, I never wanted to hear those words, ever
I’ve just had a mammogram and ultrasound this morning and the lumps are clear, Thank the lord
Next procedure is in two weeks around my scar to check the cells are clear, but today I’m taking a big breath and trusting in the journey of life
These last 6 weeks certainly took the wind out of my sails but today I feel like the lucky one.
I’m sharing this today because I want to highlight the importance of:
Spending time with your body and if something doesn’t feel right, don’t delay, get it checked out
If you feel that your body is a no to something, say no, ask questions , do what you need to make yourself feel informed and to make you feel safe
Dance between the dark and the light and always keep that connection to you, to all of you, feel what’s there and know you are never alone, there is so much love around you
I’ve said it time and time again and I’ll say it some more
You never ever know what card you are going to be dealt with next - live your fucking life
* Picture by the gorgeous Katrina Festorazzi
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Back in September, I reached out to the gorgeous Melanie Sykes , Editor in Chief of Frankand said I’d love to talk to her about my mission in this world.
I loved everything Frank stood for and it’s intention to inspire and ignite the warrior woman you are and that you really can do anything you like in life when you believe in it and believe in you.
I felt this so deeply and is fundamental in the work I share in the world
Both being women on an absolute mission to raise the vibration of this planet, I was not surprised when we met, that we would hit it off and I am very excited to share my interview with Melanieand what I know will be first of many features in Frank - I am so excited to be a very small part of this movement and to share this with you … Eek!!
Click here to read the interview
Click here to read the interview
Learning to feel pain has been one of the hardest part of becoming the embodied person that stands here today
Only five years ago, I was so numb but had absolutely no idea and when I started to wake up and remember my past trauma, all I wanted to do was squash it all back down again – I wanted to hide under a duvet and run away from it all, to carry on ignoring my body cries to just be listened to
I get how hard it is to run away from your pain and when you keep yourself busy so there is no time to feel
I get that it’s overwhelming to think that maybe you’ll never cope if you go there and feel everything that is trying to get your attention
I don’t only get it, I have been there and stuff comes up for me all the time
The difference now is that I let it move, I feel it, I don’t hide, I listen, I express the emotion whether it sadness, anger or the most gorgeous pleasure
Someone said to me this week that I am all over the place at the moment because some days I might be sad, in tears and low in energy and other days I’m bouncing off the walls in the upmost happiness
I pondered on it and came to the conclusion that YES I am all over the place and that’s because I am an energetic goddess that is ALIVE, I feel everything now which means emotions move quickly though me
I will 100% take being alive, feeling free and feeling everything over being numb because I live to be alive now
Life is so fucking short and I am continually being reminded how precious life is
I will never ignore myself EVER again – the pain, the pleasure, I will feel all of it
This is the life of an embodied goddess
Darling, if this is speaking to you and you are ready to start listening to all of you and give your body permission to feel so you connect more fully to life and to every moment you have on this planet, get in touch. The Goddess Awakeningstarts in just over a week and I would love to hold your hand for the next three months on a journey to embrace all that you are and all that you are becoming
A Goddess awakened is empowered, she leans into everything that arises in her because she knows on the other side is the deepest embodied pleasure that awakes every cell of her body
She is confident, powerful and full of orgasmic pleasure that ripples across every area of her life
She leads with her needs because she knows she is worthy of ALL the love in her life
The Goddess awakeningstarts on the 25th October and is a three month deep dive journey into the soul, A beautifully held journey to awaken the goddess within you, to surrender into everything that is yearning to be expressed whilst opening up to more love, pleasure and abundance into your life
What I teach here is the work that I have been doing over the last five years that took me from the depths of despair and full of shame around who I was to feeling unstoppable, full of orgasmic energy and the powerful woman I have become.
I have so much passion for showing every woman on this planet how to connect to the goddess within her because it will:
❤️ Help set you free from anything that is stopping you from embracing all that you are
❤️ Release shame and guilt to you owning your sexual POWER
❤️ Give you the permission to be unapologetically YOU in EVERYTHING
❤️ Unleash your deepest desires connecting you to pleasure in all its forms
❤️ Connect you to the beauty and expansion in your body
❤️ Reclaim the connection to your body, to your pussy power that is all YOURS
❤️ Deeply connect you with other women and the power of belonging to a sisterhood
❤️ Transform your relationships and positively impact every single area of your life
My darling if this is speaking to you, drop me a DM and I can tell you more, we start in two weeks and there are only 12 spaces.
I was sent this today by someone that had watched the documentary and my goodness it was the perfect quote to read in that very moment.
None of us have life sorted beautiful ones - life throws you bumps in the road all the time when you least expect it and you know why? Because there is a learning in everything and because it’s part of your path - I know sometimes you think, how the hell can there be a learning in this-and why now? There is always some wisdom, something that will enrich your soul
Something I always tell myself even in the depths of despair is to TRUST and to lean into LOVE - there is so much love all around us if we let ourselves FEEL it - feel it all even the anger, the sadness, the why me - feel it all and come back to love, to trust, to knowing
You will rise again stronger, so much stronger than you'll ever know.
Posting this for anyone else that needs to here this right now ❤️
OMG - my dream of being on TV
will be reality tomorrow and look at this gorgeous image they've just sent of myself and Alice complete with my gorgeous yoni cushion Penelope!
My goodness what a journey:
Many have asked me - how did you get this opportunity - they found me through google and I wasn't paid. Think they were over the moon that not only had they’d found someone who had just finished her book but working with women to heal trauma and connect them to their sexual power, to their truth and was unapologetic about it too
I was so ready but lots to navigate:
✨ Firstly, my gorgeous Mark, he had just got his head round being in the book and then I was like - how do you feel about being on TV? He was an absolute NO. Let’s just say after lots of negotiations he held my hand through it all and was interviewed too 😀
✨ Then I was crippled with fear, could I really put my trust in them to represent me in the light I wanted it to be received?
✨ Day 1 of filming I was sick, I was so scared, not to tell my truth but how they would edit me? I had no control over what would happen especially in the session with my client
✨ This fear engulfed me, this wasn’t just about me, I was representing my industry, I ended up in hospital, this all happened a week before the second day of filming. I threw myself into healing me, got support from my beautiful teachers and coaches and aligning to trust that all will be ok
✨ The second day of filming was so powerful. I’ve never had anyone in the room with me filming and witnessing my work and my clients experience but they were witnesses and just that, my focus was my client and at the end as the session closed, I could see they were moved to tears
I knew they saw the power in this work, but most importantly they felt it and that was everything to me
Tomorrow night, you will see a summary of the journey Alice went on, two long days of filming into just over 11 minutes in the documentary
Yes, I am excited and I am so proud of myself, mark and my client and friend Claire Standen
for taking this HUGE leap of faith and trust in what I feel will open the eyes of millions (OMG!) that watch it into a small insight into this phenomenal healing modality
So Tomorrow Night - 10pm Channel 4 - Sex Actually
– who will be watching with me?
I’m not lost
Just undiscovered
Omg yesterday I listened to James Morrison’s undiscovered for the first time in years and it took me right back to a time in my life
I was staying in a beautiful chateau in France with my gorgeous friend Nicky. Her beautiful parents had just bought this place and it took our breath away as we drove up to it, it was stunning. we stayed for a week and it felt like I’d checked into the priory as it was so beautifully nourishing on so many levels
Two months before that my husband had just left me, I was on the floor and not knowing how I would ever cope again
I was in a career that I loved but I always felt like I wasn’t being seen for my potential and I was most definitely hiding behind a whole barrage of limiting beliefs that I wasn’t good enough and in fear of what the hell would happen next
Over the week, We drank a lot of wine, we cried, we laughed and I was surrounded by so much love from my gorgeous Geordie family and as the week went on, I started to feel like maybe I would be ok
I remember singing this song in the kitchen literally screaming our hearts out
Screaming to God, the Universe , whoever would listen
You may think I wanna run and hide
I keep it all locked up inside
I just want you to find me
I’m not lost, I’m just undiscovered
If you dig a little deeper you will find me
I’m not lost, I’m just undiscovered
My god, hasn’t life taken a massive you turn - I feel like I’m on the clasp of a huge up levelling in my life (did I mention I’m going to be in TV in two weeks? 😂) and I look back at myself just 12 years ago and I just wanna cuddle her in my arms and tell her to trust, it really will be ok
You will find your passion
You will find your purpose
You are not lost
You are just undiscovered
If this speaks to you where you are right now, let me tell you this
Trust my darling
Trust that everything will be ok ✨ ❤️
Everything that is sent to us is because it’s part of our path, our lesson in life, you’ve got this darling
And if you fancy belting this song out, here's the link ❤️
Have you said hello to your body this morning yet and asked for what it needs?
Getting to know my body, listening to it and meeting it has been life changing for me - I call this embodiment and as you wake up scrolling through FB this morning, I'm wondering whether you have checked in with yourself today.
💕 Embodiment is about connecting to your body and feeling what's there
💗It’s about giving yourself permission to feel Everything , even when it hurts
💕When you let go of all the things you tell yourself you can’t or shouldn’t feel
💗 When you say yes to your body, something magic happens - Your body starts to relax and release itself , you let go of any thoughts that stop you and your body starts to lead the way
💕Your body loves to show itself to you, It never lies and the more you connect, the more sensations you start to feel , it could be goose bumps, a shiver, a warmth like someone is holding you in their arms
When you begin to trust your body, you stop ignoring the pain and instead you start to listen with compassion and the best bit, you meet it
❤️ So if your body says please rest and don't go to the gym today, you listen and you don't
✨ If you body wants to move, stretch, bounce around and dance it's socks off, you blast up the tunes and you move your butt!
❤️ If it's full of frustration and anger and wants to scream from the rooftops - you do it and don't care about the noise you are making
✨ If your body says, I really need to relax - you might run a nice hot bath or book a massage
❤️ If it says, ooh Id like to be touched, you take time and squeeze or stroke it
so many ways, we can get in our bodies...
Embodiment has changed everything for me and my clients physically and energetically , it is a game changer
And if you are ready and open , will set you free from your mind, will let go of pain, numbness and connect you to so much pleasure
And the best bit, is it quick and when you say YES, the energy in your body moves and expands quickly because it knows you are listening
So you can go from feeling intense, stressed and like the world is against you to feeling euphoric, orgasmic and alive in every cell of your body in minutes
So what is your body asking for this morning? Go on ask it
In The Goddess Awakening, my signature 12 week journey, the embodiment sessions are fundamental in the growth and expansion in YOU.
Over the 12 weeks, I'll lead you on 12 delicious embodiment sessions where you will explore all of you, we express rage, anger, laughter, love, whatever arises, a beautiful breast ritual, womb healing - so so so much connection to your body and I'll introduce you to embodiment tools that will change your life forever.
Get in touchif you'd like to know more and until then
Check in with your body now, before you scroll any further xx
Getting to know my body, listening to it and meeting it has been life changing for me - I call this embodiment and as you wake up scrolling through FB this morning, I'm wondering whether you have checked in with yourself today.
💕 Embodiment is about connecting to your body and feeling what's there
💗It’s about giving yourself permission to feel Everything , even when it hurts
💕When you let go of all the things you tell yourself you can’t or shouldn’t feel
💗 When you say yes to your body, something magic happens - Your body starts to relax and release itself , you let go of any thoughts that stop you and your body starts to lead the way
💕Your body loves to show itself to you, It never lies and the more you connect, the more sensations you start to feel , it could be goose bumps, a shiver, a warmth like someone is holding you in their arms
When you begin to trust your body, you stop ignoring the pain and instead you start to listen with compassion and the best bit, you meet it
❤️ So if your body says please rest and don't go to the gym today, you listen and you don't
✨ If you body wants to move, stretch, bounce around and dance it's socks off, you blast up the tunes and you move your butt!
❤️ If it's full of frustration and anger and wants to scream from the rooftops - you do it and don't care about the noise you are making
✨ If your body says, I really need to relax - you might run a nice hot bath or book a massage
❤️ If it says, ooh Id like to be touched, you take time and squeeze or stroke it
so many ways, we can get in our bodies...
Embodiment has changed everything for me and my clients physically and energetically , it is a game changer
And if you are ready and open , will set you free from your mind, will let go of pain, numbness and connect you to so much pleasure
And the best bit, is it quick and when you say YES, the energy in your body moves and expands quickly because it knows you are listening
So you can go from feeling intense, stressed and like the world is against you to feeling euphoric, orgasmic and alive in every cell of your body in minutes
So what is your body asking for this morning? Go on ask it
In The Goddess Awakening, my signature 12 week journey, the embodiment sessions are fundamental in the growth and expansion in YOU.
Over the 12 weeks, I'll lead you on 12 delicious embodiment sessions where you will explore all of you, we express rage, anger, laughter, love, whatever arises, a beautiful breast ritual, womb healing - so so so much connection to your body and I'll introduce you to embodiment tools that will change your life forever.
Get in touchif you'd like to know more and until then
Check in with your body now, before you scroll any further xx
🔥🔥🔥🔥OMFG it’s now official 🔥🔥 🔥🔥
After months of having to keep this quiet, I can FINALLY share I am going to be on:
Channel 4.
Weds 6th Oct. 10pm (It starts next Wed 22nd at 10pm and not to be missed!)
This is FUCKING huge on so many levels and I will share more soon about that but my show is the last one of three in the series and all about SEXUAL HEALING and the wonderful work I do in the world and why this is so important to me.
Alongside my gorgeous client and friend Claire Standen
and the wonderful Jem Ayres
and other wonderful people in the documentary we are looking to lift the taboo and shame around sex and this phenomenal work that has set so many free including me
I think I’m going to have a watch party and celebrate on the night and may also be balling my eyes out - no idea yet! Wanna come?
I know how it feels to keep yourself so busy that you shut down your mind so you never have space to think or feel
There are many reasons you can do this, and believe me, I know as I have done it too:
❤️ Keeping busy is easier then feeling the pain you feel
❤️ You like to use the fact that you are so busy as an excuse why you can’t put yourself first
❤️ Your unhappy with something but would rather ignore it then go there
❤️ You like to feel wanted by others as it makes you feel good about yourself
It’s easier to numb yourself then to really acknowledge your truth:
✨ That you are pissed off and know you deserve better
✨ Your body is tired, it’s screaming at you and you keep ignoring it
✨ You’ve had enough of never having time for yourself but you can’t work out how it will ever change
✨ You want to scream from the rooftops but tell ourselves you shouldn’t or it’s not appropriate
✨ You know there is more, you miss the aliveness you once felt, that joy for life but you have no idea how to find your way back
Let me tell you ABSOLUTELY can – but you know what has to change?
You ignoring You!
Things are never going to change unless you start listening to your truth and start putting yourself first
If you are ready to stop fucking around and leave 2021 behind knowing you are ready to step into the person you really want to be, get in touch
– I have something perfect for you.
This week has seen me in a real battle with why am I here and have been trying to make sense of it all but since sharing this, the energy is moving
I’ve been hiding my spiritual side because some of goings on in the last two years have freaked me out because it’s another level of woo that I don’t fully understand
Dying and death had always scared me and losing so many people I love in tragic circumstances made me question what is the point of this life and why was it happening?
I was living in fear of dying but in the last four years I’ve made peace with death and been blessed to experience things that have blown my mind ~ seeing spirits leave, messages from people that have passed and I’ve been a channel for souls as they’ve transitioned from this world.
I never asked for this and this week it took me somewhere I had never been
I know it’s a gift, I am learning how to navigate and set spiritual boundaries but at times felt so alone and scared knowing the energy wasn’t mine but also blessed that they chose me
But do I understand it all and what it means in terms of my purpose and how it links to my mission?
Not at all but it’s happening and since I accepted that over the last few days and said it out loud something has shifted in me.
Sometimes it is easy to be in your little cocoon and tell yourself you have to figure it out first and that no one will understand but today saying stuff out loud has shown me that’s rubbish and more souls have been introduced to me that get it and I no longer feel alone in this very different world.
And just as I was speaking about this to a friend today in my car on the drive, this beautiful white feather flew in front of my screen and stayed on the wiper - I know this was a sign that spirit was listening, it was also 17:17 a sign for us both that the blocks are moving and that we are magical, we all have that magic in us
I am so thankful and I really want to share more of my journey because I’m sure there are others that resonate and I think I’m finally accepting after so many signs that although it might not make sense
It is my truth
It is who I am
Happy Friday 13th ~ The Day of The Goddess ✨✨✨
A day to celebrate the divine feminine in us all and it’s the perfect day for for me today as I start to slowly emerge from my cocoon - it feels like a rebirth for sure as the virus is finally leaving my body ✨✨✨
What a journey and thank goodness for the trust I have in myself and my body, for surrendering into what my body needed, for reaching out and asking for help - for receiving all the ❤️ that came my way, for honouring the goddess in me always because that is truly embodied in me
I am full of so much love and gratitude for myself and for all the love I’ve received along the way
I will rise and be flying again soon but until then I honour and meet myself in the juicy divine feminine energies of this special day and Invite you gorgeous beings to do the same
How can you celebrate the goddess in you today?
This is a scene that many may associate with orgasms and the reality is - they don’t always look like that and sometimes the ideas of the how one should act in the heights of pleasure can sometimes stop you from reaching the big O at all.
For me though, my views on Orgasms have changed over the last few years and my focus has switched to pleasure
Pleasure and the expansion of pleasure into every cell of my body and not chasing the goal of a big O
Darlings, I have wanted to share this for months but now the book has been birthed, I would love to introduce you to
“The Goddess”
You may recognise her from the front cover of my book
This painting means everything to me and I get to see her everyday
I collected her back in May from the phenomenal artist Amanda Heathfrom Amanda Heath Artand I was blown away by her beauty and how Amanda brought my vision to life, I am so grateful for meeting Amanda.
Below are the words that Amanda wrote for the book and encapsulates her magical creation and why she is so special:
"Kerry is someone who is larger than life, and when you meet her she fills the room with love, joy and possibility. So when she asked me to bring her vision for the cover of the book, to life, it was an immediate yes.
I love that from the very beginning she was clear on exactly the look and feel she wanted and was able to articulate that in detail.
We initially worked through a series of ‘drafts’, discovering the elements that epitomised the essence of a goddess being awakened. Capturing a resemblance of Kerry and her energy but not an exact likeness as it represents both Kerry’s journey and the journey of all the women she reaches through her work.
To have been even a small part of the creation of this book is the greatest blessing, and to have experienced the pure magic of Kerry’s energy work myself is something I will never forget.
The painting was created with acrylic, oils and gold leaf and is a symbol of the beauty, possibility, strength and grace that we all hold inside. It suggests that embracing and loving all parts of ourselves, the good, the bad and the ugly, leads to the most phenomenal awakening of the divine feminine.
Meeting and working with Kerry is something I will cherish for ever.
With love and gratitude
Amanda Heath
x"
I've only gone and done it, I am an AMAZON BEST SELLER and a HOT RELEASE in not one but TEN Categories!!!!! 🔥🔥🔥
#1 Women & Spirituality (Paperback)
#1 Inspirational Spirituality (Kindle)
#1 Women’s Spirituality (Kindle)
#1 Yoga & Tantric Sex (Paperback)
#1 Spiritual Rituals (Paperback)
#1 Courses In Miracles (Kindle)
#1 Spiritual Gifts (Kindle)
#1 Spiritual Gifts (Paperback)
#1 Human Sexuality (Kindle)
#1 Other Practices (Kindle)
When my Amazing publisher Abigail Horne
from Authors & Co messaged me this morning at 10am and told me I'd hit Number One in 3 categories. I just couldn't believe it. I still am in a state of shock I think - today has been a whirlwind!
Thank You Thank You to everyone that has bought a copy TODAY and shared it with your friends, It means the absolute world to get this for my own book but I know this is only the beginning of some amazing things to come
And If you still want to grab your copy for £1.99 for today only, you can do here and pop me a screenshot for your chance to enter a prize draw for some goodies- https://www.amazon.co.uk/dp/B099FMSRBY
Thank you so much from the bottom of my heart, I just can't believe it!
The day is here and I am so excited to let you know my book Surrender to Your Truth – A Powerful Journey to Explore the Depths of Your Soul and Awaken Your Sexual Power is out TODAY!! 🔥🔥🔥
I am so excited to share this with you and absolutely love my front cover - I’ll share more on the amazing picture soon but my god it takes my breath away!
Surrender to Your Truth is an invitation to explore the depths of your soul; to open up to a delicious life of sacred self-love, pleasure and happiness that you may never have experienced before.
This is more than a book to empower you to connect to all of you though – it’s my personal story of my awakening sharing parts of me that I have never shared before
Buy your Kindle Version here for just £1.99 today! (I would love you to buy the paperback too but buying the kindle will help me get my Amazon Best Seller and I really want to get that today so buy both and please share with the world
AND if ya wanna be in with a chance to win a card reading, goddess gift box and a 121 with me, print screen your kindle purchase and send to me to go into the draw!
Thank you darlings. I am soooo excited for today, bring it on!!
Two years ago in this most amazing location on the Amalfi Coast, I started jotting down the ideas for my book - I didn’t do much more after that
It’s because my story was still unfolding, I had so much more to experience, things would become clearer as the months went on
I did 6,000 words a year later and never looked at it until February this year
It was all in divine timing and this time I was ready, really ready to share my story but not only that, I started to believe in myself that I had a story to share and it would inspire those that read it
If you’ve started a book, don’t give up and trust that you’ll do it when the time is right
In just over three weeks I’m going to be an author, I always knew I would one day
If you have that dream too, trust it will happen and start writing - I wrote a little bit every week and by the end had over 50,000 words
Little and often when you feel inspired to write
Believe in yourself that it is possible
Trust ❤️✨
My trip down memory lane this week stirred lots of trauma in me and sometimes it comes up when you least expect it, because it’s time and you are ready to go there
And the reality is when you embody everything that arises in you, you can go from euphoria of announcing your going on TV to being on the floor and I’m ok with that because it’s all energy and it’s moving
I came away to university in Stoke on Trent when I was 18 years old and it felt like a million miles away from home and I was running. I was trying to start my life again and leave behind the person that I was because I never accepted that part of me
I never knew that at the time that’s what I did but the trauma never stopped it followed me and it became my normal and university was the perfect place to numb it - drinking, drugs, busy busy busy, so much fun but I wasn’t being true to me
Whilst I sit here finalising my book, the trauma that has rising in me these last couple of days knocked me sideways, I knew I was meant to come to back here and now I know why
I’ve cried, I’ve shaken, I’ve been sick, reached out for support and I’ve had flashbacks to past trauma that I wish I’d forgotten but I’ve let it move because I choose freedom these days and I feel so much better already
There is no such thing as being fixed and I welcome in more snot, tears and euphoria of whatever else comes my way
I’m a trauma survivor and surviving ✨❤️
And the reality is when you embody everything that arises in you, you can go from euphoria of announcing your going on TV to being on the floor and I’m ok with that because it’s all energy and it’s moving
I came away to university in Stoke on Trent when I was 18 years old and it felt like a million miles away from home and I was running. I was trying to start my life again and leave behind the person that I was because I never accepted that part of me
I never knew that at the time that’s what I did but the trauma never stopped it followed me and it became my normal and university was the perfect place to numb it - drinking, drugs, busy busy busy, so much fun but I wasn’t being true to me
Whilst I sit here finalising my book, the trauma that has rising in me these last couple of days knocked me sideways, I knew I was meant to come to back here and now I know why
I’ve cried, I’ve shaken, I’ve been sick, reached out for support and I’ve had flashbacks to past trauma that I wish I’d forgotten but I’ve let it move because I choose freedom these days and I feel so much better already
There is no such thing as being fixed and I welcome in more snot, tears and euphoria of whatever else comes my way
I’m a trauma survivor and surviving ✨❤️
Sexiness is a mindset and comes from within and as today is Sunday, I invite you to get your sexy on
Ooh so many ideas but here are some to get your sexy juices stimulated...
💋 If you are still in bed, spend a few moments saying good morning to your body, lightly touch and caress the around the contours of your entire body, try it with the palm and backs of your hand - don't rush and breathe and enjoy the sensations that arise, all of them and if it moves you to tears, embrace them too
💋 Dust off your sexy underwear and wear something sexy that you never wear or go out today without - this is all for you and it's super sexy when you know you are the only one that knows
💋 Listen to something sensual and give yourself a lap dance - why not I say - laugh your way through it if you want - it's all energy
Don't over think it. it's Sexy Sunday - so go on .... get your sexy on - are you with me?
Ooh so many ideas but here are some to get your sexy juices stimulated...
💋 If you are still in bed, spend a few moments saying good morning to your body, lightly touch and caress the around the contours of your entire body, try it with the palm and backs of your hand - don't rush and breathe and enjoy the sensations that arise, all of them and if it moves you to tears, embrace them too
💋 Dust off your sexy underwear and wear something sexy that you never wear or go out today without - this is all for you and it's super sexy when you know you are the only one that knows
💋 Listen to something sensual and give yourself a lap dance - why not I say - laugh your way through it if you want - it's all energy
Don't over think it. it's Sexy Sunday - so go on .... get your sexy on - are you with me?
What does living life in alignment actually mean for you? This is me:
✨ Things seem easy and life flows effortlessly from one moment to the next
✨ Pleasure is my priority and I welcome it in all forms
✨ I make time to always listen to me and check in with myself
✨ Opportunities fall into my lap and I thank my lucky stars for them
✨ I feel so excited for the future and know that the world is my oyster and that I can achieve anything
✨ I live for the moment and embody every emotion that arises in me
✨ When curve balls arrive, I trust and know that everything in life is a lesson and I am learning all the time
✨ I embrace all of life and know what I need to meet me when life takes me off course
Today life feels deliciously in flow - what about you and If not, what can you gift yourself today that will take you there? 💕
✨ Things seem easy and life flows effortlessly from one moment to the next
✨ Pleasure is my priority and I welcome it in all forms
✨ I make time to always listen to me and check in with myself
✨ Opportunities fall into my lap and I thank my lucky stars for them
✨ I feel so excited for the future and know that the world is my oyster and that I can achieve anything
✨ I live for the moment and embody every emotion that arises in me
✨ When curve balls arrive, I trust and know that everything in life is a lesson and I am learning all the time
✨ I embrace all of life and know what I need to meet me when life takes me off course
Today life feels deliciously in flow - what about you and If not, what can you gift yourself today that will take you there? 💕
Your Sexual power isn’t something to be ashamed about
Yet it’s something that I hid my whole life and still hide now to an extent but now I have recognised it, today marks the day I am officially outing myself
I am a powerful Sexual Goddess and I absolutely OWN my POWER
My Sexual power underpins EVERYTHING in my world
The way I show up for myself, in my work, in my relationships, It’s what I teach my clients
It impacts my whole entire life
It’s Raw
It’s authentic
It’s Juicy
It’s sooo powerful that It takes my breath away
I would LOVE to empower every woman on this planet to own their sexual power
To feel it – to really feel the magic of when you let go and surrender to all of you
To celebrate it and harness it through every single cell of your being
To bathe yourself in all the pleasure
And the part that is so misunderstood is
This isn’t about the act of SEX, it’s about owning your truth and the power that is already there
It’s about giving yourself permission to FEEL everything
And you can do it all with your clothes on - you can access it right now as you read this
It’s a power that is available ALL the time
A divine embodiment of LOVE
It’s PURE connection to consciousness – to a power you may have never known
It’s everything to me
And part of my mission in the world is to show you the way
To hold your hand and empower you to trust in the journey
I am a powerful sexy woman and I am ready to lead in a more magnificent way than ever before
I am proud to be the person I am and am becoming
Because I totally trust In the journey
Are you with me? Are you ready to own your SEXUAL POWER and stop hiding your truth in this world?
Yet it’s something that I hid my whole life and still hide now to an extent but now I have recognised it, today marks the day I am officially outing myself
I am a powerful Sexual Goddess and I absolutely OWN my POWER
My Sexual power underpins EVERYTHING in my world
The way I show up for myself, in my work, in my relationships, It’s what I teach my clients
It impacts my whole entire life
It’s Raw
It’s authentic
It’s Juicy
It’s sooo powerful that It takes my breath away
I would LOVE to empower every woman on this planet to own their sexual power
To feel it – to really feel the magic of when you let go and surrender to all of you
To celebrate it and harness it through every single cell of your being
To bathe yourself in all the pleasure
And the part that is so misunderstood is
This isn’t about the act of SEX, it’s about owning your truth and the power that is already there
It’s about giving yourself permission to FEEL everything
And you can do it all with your clothes on - you can access it right now as you read this
It’s a power that is available ALL the time
A divine embodiment of LOVE
It’s PURE connection to consciousness – to a power you may have never known
It’s everything to me
And part of my mission in the world is to show you the way
To hold your hand and empower you to trust in the journey
I am a powerful sexy woman and I am ready to lead in a more magnificent way than ever before
I am proud to be the person I am and am becoming
Because I totally trust In the journey
Are you with me? Are you ready to own your SEXUAL POWER and stop hiding your truth in this world?
I don't feel fat - I think fat is a mindset because what matters is how you feel about yourself
That's what I told my new Personal Trainer today - She asked for my weight and as of today I am 16st 8lb!
Wow what a number, I am the heaviest I have ever been - I gave up CrossFit in January and my body has definitely changed and im more curvaceous for sure but when I look in the mirror
I still LOVE what I see
But I also accept that I am now ready to tone up and get some more consistency back to my exercise and nutrition and I know my body will change but what remains is
I Love myself whatever and that for me wins over anything - that's what important not my weight! That's just a number and after so many years of feeling disgusting I am celebrating that!
Your self love means sooooo much more then a number beautiful ones!
That's what I told my new Personal Trainer today - She asked for my weight and as of today I am 16st 8lb!
Wow what a number, I am the heaviest I have ever been - I gave up CrossFit in January and my body has definitely changed and im more curvaceous for sure but when I look in the mirror
I still LOVE what I see
But I also accept that I am now ready to tone up and get some more consistency back to my exercise and nutrition and I know my body will change but what remains is
I Love myself whatever and that for me wins over anything - that's what important not my weight! That's just a number and after so many years of feeling disgusting I am celebrating that!
Your self love means sooooo much more then a number beautiful ones!
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