Putting yourself first even when it feels the hardest thing in the world

I’ve had a mixed response from my latest post and I get it If you’ve never heard of ‘energy work’ then you might think it’s unrealistic and not possible for the body to heal itself I never knew there was another way The example I shared is one example … there are many many others This conversation is a big one There is so much conditioning around illness Most of us do what we are told Follow the process that the medical team tell you There is nothing wrong with that You do you I’ve never really done as I’m told I’ve never really followed the ‘norm’ I’m a bit outside the box And I always will be Connecting more deeply with my truth and my body has changed everything My body leads the way now And I’m so thankful for this

I sat there on the bed and the doctor told me there was nothing he could do It was incurable and was something that I had to learn to live with But it's a condition that would only get worse over time and the only way to stop it is to have a hysterectomy That there were support groups that could help me I was diagnosed with Adenomyosis - a rare condition of the uterus that was super painful and made me bleed I left feeling quite distressed and off I popped and joined a few support groups Within a couple of days, I realised they were not for me, I didn't want this label and I didn't want it to be something that defined me I knew it had to be energetic so I started to explore this It was the midst of the memories of my sexual trauma coming back Memories that had buried in my body for over 20 years My uterus was reacting to the shame and the violation of my boundaries that I was processing and it made sense to me I did the energy work and I continued to feel the emotions that were alive in me No more suppression, no more shutting myself down Feeling feeling feeling Investing in myself and my healing journey Six weeks later I went back for my check-up I sat back on the bed for another internal scan The doctor looked confused He kept looking at the monitor Then back at my notes Then back at the monitor And then he looked at me It's gone he said looking surprised It's gone I said oh I know I've been doing so much energy work Huh? I tried to explain but I get it's not something that's really considered in the medical world The thing is I truly believe and know from my own experiences (and this is one of many that I will share) Is that conditions of the body are when the body is in dis ease I believe that all conditions are linked to deep rooted trauma or suppressed emotion that is then trapped in the body Which causes the disease The body is communicating with you all the time and these signs are often ignored or masked/managed in some way, which can often feel like you are going around in circles I have energetically cleared incurable conditions from myself My clients have been set free from conditions they thought they had to live with forever It's energy And when you trust in your body's ability to heal itself anything is possible The first step is to believe it can happen If you have a long-term health condition or your body is in dis ease and are ready to explore another powerful way to heal the body, Jget in touch and I can tell you how I can work with you purely 121 or in my new 6-month journey Big Love Beautiful Souls xx

In the last two years , I’ve had three people transition through me after they’ve died I embodied the pain they’ve felt in this life so they can heal and be free to move into the light and it’s been the most overwhelming experiences of my life I know this may sound crazy to some of you, I’m still getting my head round it, it blows my mind some days When I’ve been in it, it’s taken over my body, I’ve screamed cried, spoken in their voices, been sick and been in bed for days These are emotions that were squashed so fucking deep that they dared to tell a soul The pain they never wanted to feel which caused Dis ease in the body and made them sick Or pain that felt to much they took their own life because it was unbearable I’ve been asking what does this have to do with my purpose here on this Planet? It’s becoming clearer by the day Too many of us are getting sick because of the emotions we are not expressing Because of our deepest truths that we dare to admit I don’t want you to bury the stuff that hurts because you think you can’t be free from it What makes me so powerful, is I see what you can’t see I see and the feel the pain that you can’t face on your own I hold your hand and I show you how I can hold you in whatever needs to be expressed This is why I am here What I do isn’t sexy but I work with sexual energy which is your life force energy, it’s what brought you into the world and keeps you alive and has so much potency to take you to another dimension I’m not telling you it’s going to be easy, It’s fucking hard but I promise you it will move with ease when you give it permission too most people never go there But it never goes, even in death One day you’ll heal it so why wait? And live your life embodying the truth of who you are and why you are here If you are ready and this speaks to your soul Know that I’m here for it all I’m fucking powerful and I am here to show you how to really step into the person you were born to be

Last week, in the midst of lovemaking, I asked for it to stop For Mark to stop touching me It took me a while to find the words In the minutes before that I was feeling really confused I had gone from being deep in pleasure with my man To being taken back to a time in my life when I was being abused But that was pleasurable too So much shame was arising in me To acknowledge that my abuser was giving me pleasure I knew something didn’t feel right, I wasn’t allowed to speak I was confused how something could feel good but also feel so scary I cried for my little girl that had no idea she was being taken advantage of She thought that was love And she craved love so much, to be noticed I cried for my body that had held on to this shame for so many years I cried because I knew something wasn’t right I asked Mark to hold me and tell me I was safe I know what I need now I surrender into what the body is asking for The body is so powerful and knows exactly what it needs, if you listen I squashed down these feelings so often in my life So many times in the past, I told that part of me to be quiet I thought that silencing myself was healing me Because the thought of feeling the pain felt too much My little girl isn’t silenced anymore I give her space to speak I let her process whatever she wants Even if it’s not at the most 'convenient' times It’s when she is ready My little girl is sending love to your little girl I see you I feel you I love you I'm holding you close

The Embodiment of my truth hasn't been easy, It continues to shake me to my core It’s taken me to depths of myself that I never knew I've wished that I was numb again Yet I’ve also celebrated being awakened and feeling all of me I've hurt those I love But knew I had to follow what is true I'm done with being the person that others say I should be I'm done with fitting the mould I'm done with just making do I am here to embody my truth And live the life that I was born too Will this be painful and messy? YES Will it be pleasurable? FUCK YES Will it make me feel ALIVE and make the most of every fucking day on this planet? YES YES YES Embodying your truth is a choice It’s not for everyone Some choose to run from the truth And others choose to lean in and discover more of themselves If you are done playing small and ready to dance with power and light that is beyond the comprehension of what you know now Email me, my new 6-month container may just be what you are looking for

Not sure if you realised but I’m a woman on a mission to change the fucking world? To lift the vibration of this planet to another level! This week I came back fully into my body again … I’ve been in a fog for a while but now I know why.. I had to rest Because my fucking goodness do I have some magical work to do I have been in labour all week - birthing soooo much through my being I can feel the shift It’s pulsating through every cell of my body Can you see how excited I am?! Watch this space beauties - did I mention I’m a woman on a mission to change the fucking world?

One of the biggest AHAS that I’ve had since my 3am wake up is: GET YOUR BUTT ON MORE STAGES! YOU WERE BORN FOR IT!! I LOVE to take beautiful beings on a journey To get out of the head and let go of what they think they should be doing and instead To let the BODY lead the way and EMBODY what is alive in them even if it feels uncomfortable That is where the MAGIC is To step into their POWER of who they are really are To LIVE In TRUTH - unapologetically I love to do this LIVE and I’m on a mission to get on more stages this year because my goodness do I give a good show So whether it’s running a rage ritual, $exual energy activation or a power ritual Part of my MAGIC is I know what people need to hear, I don’t need to prep, I FEEL it I’m BORN for the stage darlings, BORN FOR IT and the people that experience my magic Will NEVER forget me and it will change their life forever I would love you to hit me up with any organisers or stages you think may LOVE some of the magic darlings Pic is me at latitude … my goodness that was a powerful weekend of adapting to a new audience but they were blown away!

My journey to Goa was at the beginning of the world going crazy and after cancelled planes and mayhem, I arrived late for my journey to master my pleasure I’d woken up my sexual energy and been on a crazy journey exploring this but I knew I was holding back in my own pleasure, I was afraid of my power, of what was possible within me Like with all week-long containers I attend, it was edgy and I’d had a banging headache that wouldn’t budge and was driving me crazy. I did an embodiment practice connecting to my energy body and moving energy through, I started to shake, my head started to move frantically from side to side and I was screaming NOOOOOOOOOOOO I could see it so clearly, I was being held down and I was being raped, all I could see were faces flashing up in my eyes as I moved the trauma through my body I’d experienced something like this before in my own journey but I knew this wasn’t mine Then all of a sudden, I felt my back arch and I rose from my body and saw myself connecting into the light, to consciousness I remember feeling this sense of peace all over my body as I felt the light beam in to me Then I came back to the room, I couldn’t really make sense of what happened and it took a while for me to feel fully in my body - I wasn’t really back for some time That night, I couldn’t sleep and as I tossed and turned, I felt a presence in the room, I thought I must be dreaming and then I was told very clearly This isn’t just about you It’s for the women that never had a voice All those that came before you That never had the power to heal from their trauma and the times their No wasn’t heard You are doing it for them too On the days where I want to run away I remind myself of this day I remind myself of the power I have to heal myself and the collective, both here and those that have past Sometimes it feels like a huge responsibility but it’s why I show up It’s always bigger then you … always It took me a while to integrate what happened in Goa, it was the first time, I realized that I was part of something greater than me and I’m sharing with you because I want you to know that too To be Continued….

When I was little, my mum used to tell me a lot that I was special She used to share with me the stories of her own spiritual journey and that I had guides and angels watching over me I used to raise my eyebrows and honestly thought she was a bit doolally I knew before I arrived in the world that my mum had experienced some miscarriages, she remembers the night I was conceived so clearly She felt herself rise from the bed, seeing herself below, she felt the hand of something on her shoulder but she was too scared to look around. The voice told her not to worry and that everything would be ok now She found out she was pregnant a few weeks later Another story she shared was when she was 8 months pregnant, whilst making dinner, she slipped on some water in the kitchen and as she fell, she grabbed the oven and as it fell towards her, the pan of boiling potatoes slid to the back of oven Another time, at the traffic lights whilst taking me to school, the lights turned red and just as she was about to cross, a voice told her to pull me back, just as a motorbike sped through the red light So many things like this happened in my childhood and my mum said she always knew I’d be a spiritual soul and my angels were always looking out for me I never understood or wanted to accept that I was spiritual until the last few years, I think it really began when I experienced my own out-of-body experience This happened in 2020 during a retreat in Goa and it was an experience that I will never forget and it was the catalyst for a HUGE ascension into the spiritual world. To be Continued…